Not your normal hobby

Most hobbies are all about the money put out and only the personal satisfaction you gain from it. My husbands is like that in a way. He spends tons of money on it and doesn't really show it off all that much, though he is amazing at it. I'll explain his in a little bit. Now mine is is all about the showing off. The more I am learning the more I realize it's an arts career. Most artists bust their ass showing their artwork and getting some to little return at times, but every once in while you hit the jackpot. You spend a lot of time as an artist creating your work with love and care then showing it hoping it receives good review from peers and audiences. 

So for those who haven't figured it out yet in my house being a geek or nerd are what we are all about. I said I would explain my hubs' hobby. So he plays table top games that involve small to somewhat large miniatures. He gets them unpainted and he has to paint them before he decides to use them in a game. The game he plays is called War Machine. It's beyond the focus I have but he loves it and his painting jobs are ridiculous. So now yah know how big our geek side is.

Being new to the art I'm still hesitant to take big chances and won't fully glam out yet either. 

Burlesque Festivals

Burlesque Festivals are no joke people!!!!!!

Now I know that many producers behind these festivals would not take inexperienced performers into their festivals, but you have to start seeing the sweet words of rejection sometime right? Now I am not saying this as if I think I suck so bad I can't get into a number, but I would rather be prepared for rejection and surprised by acceptance. Also my number now I don't really think is the right number for festivals, but again you have to start somewhere. This is also just my opinion though who knows what I have may be what someone wants I dunno.

So when finding a festival that sounds up your alley or fun be prepared. I had no idea what was to be expected in an application. First there is a fee, I knew that one. Then you have all your personal info, knew that too. They want your video and song as well. These were all the things I knew about. But then they want photos!!!!! Ahhhh shit peeps I have no head shots or photos that really show off my costume. I have the few from my first performance, but my second performance had hardly any. So I was stuck at this point then they want them from a server,and because I am a bit slow on the roll sometimes, when I saw this I was lost. Hello!!!!!!! Website!!!!! OMG I was embarrassed for myself after I figured it out. So here is something else I don't have. As you can see filling this application out wasn't going so well for me. 

I did it all anyway!! What I didn't have I didn't put on the application. So I don't think it's filled out correctly, but I had the courage to do it and that makes me super happy for myself. I have never been the one to take criticism well or rejection so doing this and knowing I will receive a letter by mid September that will probably tell me thank you but no thank you isn't bad but good. I will proudly display my rejection letter to everyone. 

So happy Monday bitches and have a great week!!!

Things I am quickly learning

It's time to check in about the things I am learning now that I am not in the perfect little bubble that was my burlesque class. First though let me apologize for being so damn quiet. I spent this month with family and prepping to go see that family. It was a great trip though , but damn am I glad to be back in my metropolis of sin.

So to think upon the things I am learning. Well one thing is that people truly do like to judge a person before ever getting to know them. Not to say that I haven't found some fantastic people who look at a person as a an individual and get to know their character before making fast judgments. I have found those in this group as well. But sometimes people like to turn their noses up at things they don't understand or think it's something beyond their personal comfort level. This has always irked me since I have always been a person pushing the envelope, even as a small child. I just wish people wouldn't allow their minds to start building negative thoughts without getting to know a person first.

After the classes have ended not seeing all of my dear burly sisters getting into every show they want to is hard for me. I want to see all of us succeed and when one of us doesn't it hurts my heart a little. We were all warned that not everyone is going to get into the same shows or festivals and rejection is part of doing what we do, but it doesn't mean I don't wish them all happy pasty twirling times.

Women will always be women. I say this in the way that I know we can all be catty bitches from time to time. And I have worked in fields that were dominated by women my whole life and it never seems to change. Catty behavior always follows those who have estrogen filled bodies. It's like it is mapped in our DNA or something. To anyone reading this wait until you are in the comfort of your own damn car or home to make fun of a performer or say something that isn't nice. Also keep it between you and the wall. You never know who is around when you say these things and it could get back to the person you are talking about. Now I know how it may look if you are giggling during a performance and someone sees you and you haven't done anything wrong. I have done that and then I have thought "Oh no what if someone thought I was shit talkin?" The one thing to remember in the end is that the opinion of one is not the opinion of many. Always take things with a grain of salt. Especially, because I feel there has been a little shit talking about me out their in this little world. Doesn't matter though I like who I am and those who I have had the privilege of getting to know are great people as well.

Deciding on what you want to do for a new act is fucking hard!!!!! I keep hearing these great songs where I can see myself doing something to, but I don't know which one to start with and what direction I want to go in. I will figure it out soon though...I hope.

I am the mom. Yes in the alternate universe I live in I am an actual mom with two boys, but in this world I am the mom too. I tend to cheer my friends on and help them in any way I can. I will be the cheerleader when needed, the words of wisdom about outside life at times, the more responsible one (mainly that I can't come and go when I like) if someone is in need I will figure out how to make it happen asap. I will help in any way I can in the weirdest of ways sometimes, but my heart always means well. I don't mind being the mom either it is a part I play well and I like it.

The last thing is that I have ambition. I love performing and it makes me freaking happy. I know I will be faced with rejection and cruelty from time to time and I don't mind. In the end all that matters is getting on that stage and having a blast.

As a little shout out I love my Melons and my Kiki. You two girls make my heart sing. This doesn't exclude all you other lovely ladies out there. These two just make things good when I am feeling down.

Dixie Evans

The forever loved Dixie Evans passed away the day of our show and I found out after the show was over when our MC announced her passing. I never knew her, but will be forever grateful that she brought the revival back and it allowed me to find my passion in life again.

The stories I have seen floating through the Internet have been amazing and it shows what a magnificent woman she was while gracing everyone with her presence.

Everyone who knew her or didn't knows she is smiling down with glittery lips, grinding hips, and shimmies for all.

Rest in Peace Dixie Evans

The Past Weekend

Holy crap was this last weekend an amazing weekend. I performed in a show that I wasn't sure I wanted to do at first due to the second half being a roulette. I also got to see those beautiful faces that I have missed since our show case. And of course all the fabulous boobies too!!!!

This was only my second time performing and it felt so good. I was nervous before the show started, but once it did I was loud and proud of the girls I was with. The fear melted away and all I wanted to do was get on stage. How I have become so blessed is beyond me.

For those who may or may not know we all mostly perform in bars. And let me tell you this bar we were at was pretty freaking cool. We had tons of space and good seats for the audience. the producer was very sweet and took care of us girls too. During the first half of the show it was all our own numbers. I got to see a new number by a fellow performer and met a new performer for the first time. It was a great time and we were all rooting for one another.

Now the second half of the show was a whole new twist to what we are used too. You pick a number spin a wheel and they play a song. I pulled a number first and ended up being first, I'm not going to lie I cursed big time on stage. then got a song that I didn't recognize on stage until I heard it start. Luckily for me one of my teachers got there before the second half and sat in front so it helped me remember all of my basics and stick with those. I also had those lovely ladies that I call my friends sitting around the room so it made for great times and tons of smiles. I swear if it weren't for them I don't know what I would have done that night. Truly the Roulette was a high for me.

My hubs even had a group of guys come that he worked with. Luckily I knew them and they were loving the show. One of them even was a prop for one of my girls. He was super cute about it and had great faces. And my Amazon made it before the show started so she didn't miss a thing. I love my family and don't know what I would do without the hubs and Amazon. and my friend Kiki brought her Dad to see his first burlesque show and it was so much fun having him there.

I just want to give a shout out to the ladies of my life Thank you for being loud and crazy that night I would have been very different if it weren't for all of you.

The list of fabulous faces I saw so I don't ever forget the amazing support they gave me.

Kiki Delco and her Daddy
Melons Collie
Viv Vegas and her boyfriend Mr. Vivi
Deviant Dhalia
Ophelia Pearl and Jeffery Xerxes Brice
Lou Lou Roxy and her man Christian
My hubs and Amazon
Missy Miss
Chantana
Lottie Luck
And the crowd of people I have met recently and even a few faces I didn't know.

I honestly don't know what I would do without those ladies.

My last special thanks goes to the MC and the producer. Miranda Glamour and Roxy Rouge. You ladies were amazing and I am grateful for the opportunity you gave me.