It's getting closer!!!!!

I haven't mentioned, but my course starts  freaking Wednesday!!!!!!! That's only a few days away. I'm super freaking excited and at the same time a little scared. It's that whole thing for me where I'm putting myself into a group and I know no one. Those situations scare the hell out of me.  I've taken a class from Cha Cha Velour and she was super awesome.
*sidetrack for a moment-I just realized I use super, freaking, awesome, amazing, etc. A SHIT TON. If you think I'm being an ass with this get over it. I'm excited about all this amazing shit and will repeat these words over and over until my little heart is content.*
I'm back....so Cha Cha is great and she has been such a wonderful person to chat with. But what about the other girls. Are they going to be nice people? Am I going to feel like a fool around them? So many questions filled with fear running through my head at this very moment. I'm a chatty person so I know in the end I'll be okay. It's just the first day of something new always makes me want to piss my pants.

On another note kinda dealing with all this. I'm going to start the gym soon. And I want to do the thirty day squat challenge.  All of this has encouraged me to want to be healthy again. I was never a super small girl and I don't want to be now. I just want to be comfortable enough to not wear a corset by the time the showcase is here. I want to end in nothing but a thing and pasties. As of this moment I'm not willing to do that. So through my course time which is 12 weeks I want to lose enough inches in the belly area to where I can show it off.

Oh one last thing. I have friends who are coming out from California to see my first performance. I'm actually going to have a lot of people there that first night. Knowing I will have a great support group there makes that day that much more to me. And let's not forget my little ol' mom. I'm a lucky lady to have so many friends ready to come see me take my clothes off. And lucky to have such a husband who supports anything and everything I do. I'm a happy girl.